Clean Slate

Hi :)

I've deviated away from writing on this blog for quite a while. I don't even remember when the last time was. I was reminded by a distant friend who has recently started blogging. 

So much has happened in life - good, bad, ultimately good. And my love for writing has brought me back here again to achieve the goal in which I first started this blog:

1. To clean out my mind and empty out thoughts for peace and understanding
2. To record my life (Life passes by so fast, I often feel like a "careless tourist" (Benaim). I don't want to lose hold of what matters.)
3. To share life with others whom resonate with me, and possibly encourage

This is not an exhaustive list. And it's in no means listed by priority. But now that I've returned (hopefully for good), I wanted to write an introductory post as a mark to a new start.

JJF

"So for APs, i would suggest the princeton review and mcgraw-hill as being the best. ALL the teachers suggest Kaplan but honestly it really didn't prepare me as well as the other AP books did. So don't go off solely on Kaplan. Also, study from the notes/textbooks from schools, not just the AP books because all it does is give you a summary when in actual fact, you need to know a lot more in detail.

For the SATS, my advice would be not to make the mistake of thinking you have studied for the SATs when you have studied for the APs, thinking they're the same material. They actually test quite differently, so you should devote around 2 months or so studying for the subject tests. Try the Princeton Review for the SATs...they worked really well for me! And for the SATs, don't study the material that your teachers teach, cuz the syllabus tested in the SATs is the american syllabus - so not at all like the canadian one. you're gonna waste a whole lot of time if you study your school material all over again. 

Yes AP, SATs (subject and actual) would be all. For the SAT, prepare well in advance. If you're planning to take it in September, start preparing in the summer. Do as many practice (timed) tests as you can to get used to the timing. VOCAB is extremely important because it helps in both the reading and writing sections which is what a lot of people fault on (the math is superbly easy). What I would suggest would be to write out the words and meanings on index cards so you can carry them around and review them wherever. Or. what I did was get my mom to test me - so read out a word and I say the meaning. Whatever your means though, make sure you know your vocab really really well. As for the reading, the only way to prepare for that would be to practice. ANd for the math, just making sure you are especially careful because it's really easy, all Grade 11 level stuff and below. just don't make any careless mistakes."
-From a helpful someone while I was in high school.

Móa The Green Balm Review

Picture from Cultbeauty.co.uk

After having contemplated enough, I took the (not so steep) plunge and bought this secretly raved, 'miraculous' balm. (Secretly raved in that it's not an infamous product.)

I first eyed the product on http://www.cultbeauty.co.uk/, and after reading all (i.e. 9) the hype reviews, I couldn't not buy it. I researched and found that http://www.feelunique.com offered the greatest deal.

I received this product about three weeks after I had ordered it, leaking in oil... Ever since it arrived in the mail, I was oh-so-very excited and used it religiously... until today. I kept it in a freezer and in room temperature. I applied it on wounds, blemishes (pustules, white/black heads, common pimple), stretch marks, dry patches...

In room temperature, the balm is very gooey and oily. Feels like you are applying Vaseline that was in the car on a hot summer day. 

When kept in the freezer, the balm hardens, and the warmth of your fingers melts the product and makes the balm enjoyable to use.

The packaging... sucks. It came leaking of oil. That should explain pretty much how bad the packaging is. Because the product is gooey and liquidated in room temperature, you cannot take it around with you or travel with it. The plastic packaging of the balm doesn't allow for it because it doesn't seal shut and keep the oil in. 

The reason I stopped using it today after having generously applied it anywhere I could think of for about a month was because I finally realized how terrible the product was and that it was probably for my own good that I stop using it. The dry areas and the areas where I had stretch marks became dryer (fyi: dry skin is a stretch marks playground). On the wounds and blemishes (all the various kinds of blemishes I have, yay!) I applied the balm to, I got cystic acne and deep, sore raises that I have never had in my life. They are an inch big in diameter... Do you know when you feel a pimple coming? These have formed into painful pimples after I religiously applied the balm on them. Mind you, I don't get pimples and cystic acne like this. This was not normal. And this is coming from a girl that once suffered from Stage 4 acne (the worst of the worst).

To clear any doubts you may have, I LOVE and ADORE trying every and any product. I have rarely repurchased any product, and if I have, I must not be able to live without it. Thus, coming from a girl that has tried various balms, creams, oils, etc., organic and inorganic, high and low end, this is one of the worst products I have ever used. 

I hated it so much, I questioned the reliability of the reviews on FeelUnique and CultBeauty. There was not a single negative review I could find. Judging from the fact that The Green Balm is a fairly small company that only makes this Móa balm and the lack of reviews I could find on it, don't trust the all-too-positive reviews you see on those two sites. I mean, realistically speaking, how can a product have a perfect 5 star rating on the ONLY two sites that have reviews on the product. FeelUnique had 33 reviews (if I counted correctly), that rave about the product and mention not ONE shortcoming. None. CultBeauty had 9 reviews with all a 5/5 rating. It's impossible for a product to have a 100% satisfaction rate because everyone is different and not everyone likes the same thing. And, I find it hard to believe that not a single person mentioned how it leaks. One girl claims to carry a mini-sized version of the balm in her handbag... I find that quite hard to believe since this balm melts in room temperature and came leaking oil when it arrived at my door. For goodness sake, even the Urban Decay Naked Palette has a rating of 4.8/5. And I think most of us can agree, the Naked Palette is amazing and works for almost everyone, of every skin type and skin tone. 

My rating: 1/5.
Can I please give it a zero? :( But since it didn't kill me, I guess it deserves a star for that... ;)

Do I recommend? To purchase? No. Do I recommend you stay away? Yes. Instead, RUN. RUN AWAY. This is like a melted version of Vaseline, except worse. There are so many other great products out there, including the RMS Coconut Oil (if you are looking for an organic balm to try that is also affordable). But otherwise, RUN.

Any questions, comments, feedback? Please leave them in the comments!

Hope you found this review helpful. :)

Bless you.

Sincerely,
me!

Pros of Blogging/Writing

To remember prayer needs
To collect spiritual quotes
To capture special events
To keep a watch on your soul
To remember the faithfulness of God

Bonus: have a good laugh when you read your old entries and see how much you've changed/grown over time :)

Exerpts from Leslie Ludy March Issue

Sharing you my favorite parts of the SetApartGirl March Issue 2013 by Leslie Ludy.
Hope it inspired you as much as it did I.

"This is normal Christianity. Radical self-denial, self-sacrifice, and self-abandonment. Completely forgetting about self and self-interest, and willingly and gladly pouring our lives out for the glory of our King. We are called to far more than most of us ever dream or imagine. To go out into all the world and make disciples of all nations. To seek and save the lost. To be His hands and feet to the fatherless. To give up our very lives for the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

"...about absolute obedience to the Spirit of Jesus Christ. It's about laying down selfish pursuits and becoming consumed only with serving and loving our King.

"No matter where you have been or where you are at, Christ has placed this same high calling upon your life. Steal away to be alone with Christ, and lay your life before Him. Allow Him to gently reveal to you the selfish patterns or your life, and ask Him to forgive you and remake you in each of those areas. Exchange your right to live a comfortable, predictable life for the privilege of losing everything for His sake."

Hope you enjoyed! 

Struggling

Are you struggling? Have you struggled? If you answered yes at least once, then take your time a reflect of these verses. I'm spiritually and mentally struggling right now and I found these words to be a great motivation to me. The Word is flesh. The Word is Life. Amen.

God bless.

Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: casting all your cares upon him; for he careth for you. (1 Peter 5:7)

God may not heal the "thorn in your flesh," but he will work in your life and show his strength in your weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:7-10)

God says to Samuel, "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart" (1 Samuel 16:7)

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)

Hope you enjoyed and took a time to breathe and smell the flowers. We need that sometimes. ;-)

Sincerely,
me!

And You tell me once again, “I am Your father, Your creator. You are my child. You don’t have to look so far to search me cause I am in You and You are never alone. I will help you in every storm. I know Your heart more than You know what it feels or thinks so lean towards me. I have plans stored up for You and Your prayers are stored in heaven. Everything is possible if You trust in me. Have faith my daughter. You are strong in me.”


14 The LORD turned to him and said, “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?”
15 “But Lord , ” Gideon asked, “how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.”
16 The LORD answered, “I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites together.”
17 Gideon replied, “If now I have found favor in your eyes, give me a sign that it is really you talking to me. 18 Please do not go away until I come back and bring my offering and set it before you.”

And the LORD said, “I will wait until you return.”



"God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called."


Though you do not know Me, I have known you, I have known every hair upon your head, ever small thing about you. Even the ones you try to hide from Me. I love you the same. Even though you have not cared, I have, I have been with you through your biggest heartbreak. Wanting - oh - how I just wanting to mend it and make you whole in Me again. Though you do not believe in Me, I do believe in you. I create masterpieces to withdraw your attention to My beauty. I will use that weapon against you to make you stronger - to make you the masterpiece I intended. Be free My beloved child from the calamity of this world, be free in Me. For where I am is there freedom - I desire to be your everything, above all else, your bridegroom, and lover. I desire to have your heart, and not for what you give it away to. Though your heart was once hard, you must become broken for Me to mend you again.. for Me to mold you into the masterpiece I once had in mind. Come back to your first Love, be free in Me. —Jesus Christ

The Lord is good to those who hope in him, to those who seek him. Lamentations 3:25

But Lord, you are my shield, my wonderful God who gives me courage. Pslam 3:3

Keep your eyes focused on what is right, and look straight ahead to what is good. Proverbs 4:25

Whoever tries to live right and be loyal finds life, success, and honour. Proverbs 21:21

Also, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about something and pray for it, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. Matthew 18:19

The Lord says, “Whoever loves me, I will save. I will protect those that know me”. Psalm 91:14

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
~ Ephesians 3:20

Isaiah 41:14
I will help thee, saith the Lord.

This morning let us hear the Lord Jesus speak to each one of us: "I will help thee." "It is but a small thing for Me, thy God, to help thee. Consider what I have done already. What! not help thee? Why, I bought thee with My blood. What! not help thee? I have died for thee; and if I have done the greater, will I not do the less? Help thee! It is the least thing I will ever do for thee; I have done more, and will do more." "Before the world began I chose thee. I made the covenant for thee. I laid aside My glory and became a man for thee; I gave up My life for thee; and if I did all this, I will surely help thee now. In helping thee, I am giving thee what I have bought for thee already. If thou hadst need of a thousand times as much help, I would give it thee; thou requirest little compared with what I am ready to give. 'Tis much for thee to need, but it is nothing for me to bestow. 'Help thee?' Fear not! If there were an ant at the door of thy granary asking for help, it would not ruin thee to give him a handful of thy wheat; and thou art nothing but a tiny insect at the door of My all-sufficiency. 'I will help thee.'" O my soul, is not this enough? Dost thou need more strength than the omnipotence of the United Trinity? Dost thou want more wisdom than exists in the Father, more love than displays itself in the Son, or more power than is manifest in the influences of the Spirit? Bring hither thine empty pitcher! Surely this well will fill it. Haste, gather up thy wants, and bring them here-thine emptiness, thy woes, thy needs. Behold, this river of God is full for thy supply; what canst thou desire beside? Go forth, my soul, in this thy might. The Eternal God is thine helper!

"Fear not, I am with thee, oh, be not dismay'd!
I, I am thy God, and will still give thee aid."

Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it’s the greatest moment of your life when you get to experience it with one person. Who’s standing next to you?-Unknown

Sometimes you have to step outside the person you’ve been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are. -Marvin

God's Presence

Forsaken by God? When you can’t feel God

Detecting God’s presence When trying to measure time or weight or temperature or speed or any of a hundred other things, we make a huge leap forward whenever we stop trusting our feelings or intuition and start relying on instrumentation. For instance, trying to tell the time by using our feelings, such as how hungry or tired we feel, and our senses, such as how light it seems, is crudely inaccurate compared to using an objective measure of a clock. Likewise, guessing from circumstances or whether we feel guilty or happy or peaceful or excited or lucky, is a most unreliable way of gauging spiritual reality. The more important a matter is, the more critical it is that we stop trusting our feelings or senses and start relying on an objective measure. What if an airline pilot ignored the plane’s instrumentation and decided to fly by his gut feeling? Spiritual matters are literally more important than life and death. All of eternity hinges on them. The stakes are far too high to dare rely on your feelings or circumstances to guess spiritual reality. Sensations like ‘feeling’ the presence of God are so vague as to be virtually useless as a spiritual gauge. I don’t know if I’ve ever ‘felt’ God. And whether or not I have is of little consequence. To base one’s faith on such feelings would be a disaster for anyone. One’s faith must be in the integrity of God. Do not rely on your own understanding, warns Scripture (Proverbs 3:5). There is a way that seems right but it leads to death, screams another verse (Proverbs 14:12). You need the precision of God’s Word. Each revelation of Scripture is like a dial in a pilot’s cockpit. Give more credence to your gut feeling than to one of them, and your spiritual life is on the line. The Bible affirms that a prophet can speak in the name of God and his prophecies be supernaturally accurate and yet if his message does not align with Scripture, it is merely a test that must be utterly rejected (Deuteronomy 13:1-4). If the great apostle Paul, who worked miracles in name of Christ, proclaimed a gospel different to that recorded in Scripture, his words must be rejected. The same, he insisted, applied to a message from an angel (Galatians 1:8). Even the most anti-God force in all creation can appear as an angel of light (2 Corinthians 11:14). The Deceiver could possibly give you a false spiritual experience, but he cannot change the Bible. ‘Heaven and earth will pass away,’ said Jesus, ‘but my word will never pass away’ (Matthew 24:35). God can give you feelings God could instantly give you feelings but in the long run it wouldn’t help. Your faith must be in the bedrock of the Word of God, not the shifting sands of feelings. Emotions fluctuate wildly. God’s word is solid. And the only way anyone can be a solid Christian is to ignore feelings and hold on to that word. It’s no use thinking, If God gave me some sort of sign or feeling it would strengthen my faith. You would be hoping to put your faith in the memory of the sign or feeling, rather than in the integrity of God. You are indicating that you regard what you see and feel are more dependable than Almighty God. Handling doubt It’s been rightly said, ‘Doubt your doubts and believe your beliefs.’ Rather than become over-worried about your doubts, look to what you do believe, and draw strength from God. You will make it, not because of anything within you, but because God is powerful. Forget any deficiency you sense within you, and remember instead the sufficiency of Christ. When the disciples asked Jesus to increase their faith, he replied, ‘If you have faith as small as a mustard seed . . .’ The implication is that what we need is not so much great faith, as a great God – and you’ve got One! Often our problem is that we wrongly think our faith to be so insignificant that we don’t bother using it. To achieve great things in God, simply use the faith you already have. Take your eyes off the supposed inadequacy in your faith, and fix them on the adequacy of your God. He is all you need. When handed a million dollar check you can have many doubts and still end up rich. It doesn’t matter how much you suspect the check might bounce. It’s only if you doubt so much that you refuse to try to cash it that you could miss out. A man came to Jesus saying, ‘Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.’ He got his miracle! We cannot muster faith by ourselves. Jesus said even about himself, ‘I can of myself do nothing.’ How much more must that be true of us! So continually look to God to strengthen your faith. That won’t stop the Evil One putting doubts into your mind. He’s been using that ploy ever since Adam and Eve, when he insinuated that God did not have their best interest at heart and that the True God was lying when he warned that eating the forbidden fruit would harm them. The Deceiver even tried putting doubts in Jesus’ mind. God had audibly said, ‘This is my beloved Son in whom I am well pleased.’ Then along came Satan. ‘If you are the Son of God . . .’ he began two of his temptations. We must not let such accusations against God wander unchallenged through our minds. Reject the thoughts. Push the slimy intruders out of your mind. Displace them with the truths of God’s word. Hold out against the devil, and he will flee from you (James 4:7). Entertain that old snake’s thoughts no more than you would let a viper repeatedly bite you.   No one has perfect faith. The Bible shows even the greatest people of faith wavering in their faith (startling example). You have faith – maybe not as strong as you would like, but you have it. And Jesus taught that as you use what you have, God will give you more. (Luke 16:10; Matthew 25:21) If we had to become perfect (whether you define that as having absolute faith, giving up every sin, being absolutely sincere, or whatever) no one could ever be saved. If it were necessary for us to get our act perfectly together in order for us to be saved, it would mean God is so pathetic that he needs our help to save ourselves. You are not asked to believe you are good or lovable or dependable. You just have to believe that God is good and lovable and dependable. Faith sufficient to receive God’s blessings is fully within your grasp. So we come back to our million dollars example. (Previous webpage) All that the Deceiver can do is try convincing you that you are just as spiritually poor as you were before you asked forgiveness through Jesus. He’ll try putting thoughts and doubts into your mind to get you to throw away as worthless, God’s ‘million dollar check.’ He’ll try to say that God is not true to his word – that although the unchanging Lord promised spiritual riches to all who come to him through the sacrificial death of Jesus, it’s a lie. The Evil One might be more subtle and try to persuade you that you are not calling God a liar, you simply think you are not good enough. But this is just his trickery because God guarantees that whoever (no exceptions) asks forgiveness through Jesus will be forgiven and inherit all of God’s riches. (John 3:16; 1 Timothy 1:15-16; Romans 5:10; 8:32; 1 John 4:10 etc) Either that includes you, or God is a liar. Easier for some? Some people have a bigger struggle in receiving assurance of God’s favor upon them and yet these are the very people who usually end up receiving a bigger than normal blessing. I guess you have heard of John Bunyan, who wrote Pilgrim’s Progress, one of the most published books of all time. John Bunyan’s spiritual torment was horrific. For years this poor man lived in inconsolable agony, convinced he was going to hell and he could find no way out of his spiritual dilemma. With a severity that few of us could even conceive, year after year he was repeatedly overwhelmed by sin, hopelessness and the seemingly certain prospect of an eternity in Hell. Not only did he finally get all he had been yearning for, it was largely this experience that formed the book that has touched and brought spiritual help to multiplied millions. No wonder Pilgrim’s Progress is such an outstandingly powerful book, impacting people over the centuries and around the world in a phenomenal way. Much of it was virtually autobiographical. Great men like George Whitefield and John and Charles Wesley also suffered enormously in their struggle to find salvation. Whitefield’s spiritual need was so all-consuming that his fastings almost killed him. John and Charles were inconsolable until at long last they found salvation. Spurgeon suffered so greatly in his quest for salvation that he wrote, ‘I had rather pass through seven years of the most languishing sickness, than I would ever again pass the terrible discovery of the evil of sin.’ Not surprisingly, their subsequent ministries eclipsed that of almost all Christians who have been spared such anguish of soul. So I believe the greater your present struggle, the more likely it is that you are headed for an exceptional spiritual adventure. The positive side of doubt A woman who was plagued with doubts e-mailed my ministry partner. Helen Hall’s reply was so good that I must share it with you:
When we are hit hard by life’s negative experiences – death, divorce, unemployment, rebellious children – we can all find ourselves questioning God’s existence, or mercy, or love, or ability or willingness to help. But you are approaching this in the right way – by bringing your doubts out into the open. Babies don’t ask questions. They just accept everything around them quite happily, unless they are uncomfortable. But 4 year olds are totally different! They ask endless questions. How? When? Where? Why? Who? They have become more mentally aware of the world around them, and they are trying to make sense of it all, and understand how it all fits together. If they ask “Why did you do that, Mommy?” it isn’t that they are doubting their mother’s love or wisdom. They are just trying to understand how her actions fit into the general scheme of things. They are on a steep learning curve. And, spiritually, you are on a steep learning curve. So were the disciples. Christ said to them at the Last Supper (John 16:12) “I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now.” It is possible that these doubts that arise in you from time to time are an indication that the Holy Spirit knows you are now ready to grow a little more. Currently you are experiencing ‘growing pains,’ but your faith will be all the stronger for it! Yesterday I was reading Matthew 9:18-26:
(18) While He spoke these things to them, behold, a ruler came and worshiped Him, saying, “My daughter has just died, but come and lay Your hand on her and she will live.” (19) So Jesus arose and followed him, and so did His disciples. . . . (23) When Jesus came into the ruler’s house, and saw the flute players and the noisy crowd wailing, (24) He said to them, “Make room, for the girl is not dead, but sleeping.” And they ridiculed Him. (25) But when the crowd was put outside, He went in and took her by the hand, and the girl arose. (26) And the report of this went out into all that land.” My attention was particularly caught by “the noisy crowd wailing,  . . . And they ridiculed Him. But when the crowd was put outside, He went in and took her by the hand, and the girl arose.” (NKJV)
The crowd were right! They had to be right. They were official mourners. They could recognize death when they saw it! The girl was definitely beyond help. And so they ridiculed Christ’s words. They were never more wrong! This was certainly a case where “seeing is believing” didn’t work! And then I looked at, “But when the crowd was put outside.” What an odd way to put it! Why “was put outside,” not “had gone outside”? I examined the Greek word for “put outside.” It means to eject, cast out, expel! The Bible uses this same word when it talks about Jesus casting out evil spirits! So I now see my doubts as being like that noisy, clamorous crowd, who, trusting in the evidence of their own eyes, were so sure they were right – and were so seriously wrong! And now I grab my doubts by the scruff of the neck and throw them out.
Should you believe your senses?
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A scientist says earth hurls through space at great speed; to you it seems motionless.
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A doctor says a mark on your body is cancer; to you it feels harmless.
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An electrician says a wire is dangerously live; to you it looks dead.
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A mechanic says your car needs oil immediately; you don’t think it’s necessary.
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A soldier says an area is sown with land-mines; you can’t see any. Who should you believe: your senses, or the expert?  
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Jesus says ‘if anyone loves me . . . my Father will love him and we will make our home with him’ (John 14:23); you feel empty.
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God says how often I would have gathered your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings (Matthew 23:37); you feel God is unfeeling.
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God says nothing can separate you from the love of God (Romans 8:35-39); you feel something going wrong proves God no longer loves you.
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God says rejoice in the Lord always (Philippians 4:4); you feel there’s nothing to rejoice in.
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God says be not surprised at the painful trial you are suffering (1 Peter 4:12), we must go through many hardships to enter the kingdom (Acts 14:22); you feel surprised.
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God says, he was bruised and wounded for you (Isaiah 53:5); you wonder if he loves you.
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God says your sins will be wiped out (Acts 3:9) and he will remember them no more (Isaiah 43:25; Hebrews 8:12); you feel he is holding the past against you. (More such statements) Who do you believe: your senses, or the Expert? Climax If your spiritual enemy knows you will be thrown by what happens to you, he can twist you around his little finger just by giving you a hard time. You are inviting him to attack because he knows it will keep you from trusting the Lord, who alone can defeat Satan. For as long as you look to feelings and circumstances to verify spiritual truth, you will be a weak Christian. But you can be a powerful spiritual conqueror by stubbornly clinging to the fact that the God who cannot lie is steadfastly devoted to you. Refuse to entertain any other thought. By having that resolve you have defeated the devil. He knows it doesn’t matter what he hits you with, you will cling to God, your strength, so he has less incentive to bother. Faith – believing in the integrity of God despite what things seem – is the basis of the entire Christian life. Some people’s ‘greater’ faith might only be an illusion produced by them having had an easier life than mine. Nevertheless, I am sick of being immobilized by excuses. I don’t care how impossible things look, how many failures I have experienced, how spiritually dead I feel, how much the Lord appears to overlook me: God is still the God of the Bible. His Word affirms he is my God and he loves me, regardless of how abandoned, unloved and insignificant my wild imagination paints me as being. That makes spiritual success inevitable. All I need do is stop wallowing in doubt long enough to receive my rightful inheritance. So often God seems to deliberately overlook me. So often the Bible seems as dry as dust. So often I feel as if I have nothing to live for. My emotional pain seems endless. God constantly seems to favor others over me. But nothing – nothing – can change the constancy of the incomprehensible enormity of God’s love. Nothing can made God break his word. Suppose it were rumored that your marriage partner is being unfaithful. There are three things you need to know for peace of mind. Does your partner insist he or she loves you faithfully? Is your partner honest? Does he or she know what genuine love is? Once you are certain of these three things, you can dismiss all evidence to the contrary and believe in your partner’s love. God in his Word has declared his undying love for you. He’s put it in black and white for the whole world to see. Is God honest? Does he know what real love is? Then you can put aside any suggestions to the contrary and rest in his love. If salvation were by works we might have to hobble 100 miles on our knees, or some such thing, as certain misguided Indians do. To go even one mile on our knees, we would have to resist the pain and slog on with sheer determination, step after step after excruciating step. But since salvation is by faith, we should prayerfully look to Jesus and pour that degree of grit into ignoring agonizing doubts and press on relentlessly, month after month, year after year in sheer faith that God keeps his word. We long for some sort of sign or confirmation that God keeps his word. In his grace the Lord might one day give us confirmation in addition to his promise, but to refuse to believe without it is the height of impertinence because it means we think God could lie. Anyone with such a low view of God has no right to expect anything from God. We march forward not by signs or warm fuzzies but by faith; stubbornly holding on to scriptural truth even when everything within us screams against it. That’s the path to spiritual honor. © Copyright 1998, Grantley Morris. May be freely copied in whole or in part provided: it is not altered; this entire paragraph is included; readers are not charged; if used in a webpage, the new page is significantly different to this one. Many more compassionate, inspiring, sometimes hilarious writings available free online at www.net-burst.net  Freely you have received, freely give. For use outside these limits, consult the author.

Where the World Began by Margaret Laurence

This is where my world began. A world which includes the ancestors-- both my own and other people's ancestors who become mine. A world which formed me, and continues to do so, even while I fought it in some of its aspects, and continue to do so. A world which gave me my own lifework to do, because it was here that I learned the sight of my own particular eyes.